A Scratchy Patch
I am in the throes of a very rough patch at this time. This
rather scratchy patch consists of several events colliding at the same time. There
is a scheduled eye surgery, several medical tests which require that someone
drive me to do them, and a crush of financial obligations beyond the scope of
my income. My guides and teachers are very crafty; when there appears to be an
urgent need for their presence, they are mysteriously silent. They however
prompt me to find my own solutions to whatever challenge by planting a thought
in my consciousness that plagues me until I arrive at the answers appropriate
for the occasion. It has always been thus.
The thought planted this time is a song from The Sound of
Music, which I have watched a million times. Not the whole score but a
particular song. One line kept repeating over and over whenever I paused from
whatever I was doing, up it would pop. I broke down and visited YouTube to hear
the entire song. It spoke to me of confidence. I have been down this road
before. Not the particular circumstance, but have faced adversity and am still
here. What was I to take away to see me through this scratchy patch. Confidence.
The confidence that the love which saw me through all the
other scratchy patches is still here is what I need now. That love has never
failed to be the underpinning of my life and will cause me to flourish even
when it appears I am wilting.
So today “I have confidence in confidence alone: beside
which you see, I have confidence in me.”
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